How good it must be to be able to speak your mind all the time, to never do anything you don't have your heart in, avoid every situation that makes you uncomfortable, be the way you feel like inside of you, all the time. Some people call it escapism, but it is in fact freedom, the freedom we all speak about, we all dream about, the proverbial dangling carrot to keep us going each time we want to throw in the towel. I myself am a mirror, i can be anyone you want me to be, i can be you & i can be him & i can be her if you give me a moment to switch & thus is happens that whoever i am, i never feel real.

Except maybe when i am with you, & we are alone together. I can fall asleep easily around you even though i find it difficult to fall asleep on my own. And i don't worry, i don't try too hard, maybe it is because i know that all will be forgotten & forgiven. It brings me peace. And i am sorry because i in turn judge you by the things you say & the things that you do, things that most often do not mean anything, because you too, like all of us, are not free. I understand now.